Sabbath

Mind is always working

Even when I’m supposed to be resting

Faced with a decision

Be still

Or keep chasing the goal

Yes I’m tired

I probably should be reading

Writing

Calm

Instead I’m wondering if I’m doing enough

Exhausted

Future faking

The lies of yesterday haunt me

Telling me I didn’t measure up

You have to work harder for your salvation

Failure can and will never be forgotten

It’s tattooed on me like the

Image pictured

Single mothers can’t rest

There is no time

Space

Moment of still

Is only for a moment

And even in that moment I’m still

Running from the past

Behind me like a shadow

The punch on the wall

Next to my face

No matter how far away I duck

And slide

Responsibility , expectation, comparison

Regret

Choke my still

Where is the lie

I’m here because of missing the mark

I don’t have time to add anyone to the chase

Not a friend a husband, family

They all end up being apart of my mistake

Mother is chasing comfort

Sabbath is a dream