Test to Testimony

Our story

I remember living a selfish life

Striving for belonging

Sense of self

“My life is mine”

Until I hit the bottom

Smacked with the reality that

Gods way

Is better

I’ve stumbled

I’ve fallen

I missed the mark so many times

I just stopped checking for it

My way isn’t even ideal

What even is ‘my way’

Stubborn

Bitter

Angry

It wasn’t prosperous

Fruitful or even good

But God

Despite all my imperfections

Made this selfish woman

A mommy

I don’t understand

No training

Guard rails

Examples

The only set up was

Gabby and I missed the mark

I fumbled when I should have held my arms up to receive

Now I’m shoulder deep

And no way out

There is no turning back

Or running for the hills

They need me right now

To do the right thing

I fumbled and God still

Chose me

How I used to do it

Isn’t going to work anymore

Quitting when it gets tough

Dragging when weary

Angry outburst

Chasing Vanity

Shutting down when I can’t wait for God to move

Again I’m reminded

My life is NOT my own

I belong to Jesus

Who paid for my life on the cross

This is a big

TRY AGAIN

Slow down

I can no longer live my life selfishly

And be free indeed

I used to protest for freedom and equality

Lead by anger and frustration at the world

No different than my enemy

God revealed I was just like them

A sinner

Saved by Grace

“Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then I am content with weakness, insults, hardship, persecutions and calamities

For When I am weak then I am strong”

2 Corinthians 12:10

Eve ate the forbidden fruit and God still chose her to be the mother of all living. The fall was great, the fruit was even greater

Generational mankind birthed a generation that led to the flood

A consequence

Or a blessing

Maybe Both?

I’m just as human as Eve

My fall has lead me to raise a generation

Alone

By Faith, I’m walking out

Recognizing the blessing in the mist of a consequence

It sucks

I wasn’t ready Or Qualified

I wasn’t called to complete them

Before they were formed in my womb

I was called

To break the cycle

Through Grace and Faith

&

Be the Mother I never had

Through this generational linage

I’ve been handed down

She doesn’t get to do

What they do

Walking on water

With everyones perfect example

The dad we’ve always had

Who will always open his arms to the prodigal