I've met Gods grace, and soon after I met shame. How did I get here? How do I get out. Maybe God wants me to extend His grace
But the shame, its heavy, kinda crippling its keeping me down
Weighing on my ability to believe I have any other call on my life
Slowing forgetting I am a child of God
I met Gods grace
But shame has me on the edge of giving up
Pretending to be holy
While losing hope
Then once again
Do I give up on God because of this sinful shame
it's With me everywhere
Allowing man to tell me who I am
Take away my morals
To strip me of my self worth
Then I met Faith
And life became renewed
Things were still the same
But the shame turned into courage
Courage became strength
And strength became motivation into new direction
Same drive
But stronger passion
Called to raise awareness
Trust that what's ahead is better than right here, but right here still has purpose
Still able to love, love more
Still able to believe, believe more
Still able to advocate, advocate more
Still able to hope, hope more
I met faith
I cant see it
But I at least know that
Everything is going to be ok
Because God has never not been there
God has never not revealed that the pain
Has purpose
And though there is a test its not to fail you
Its to strengthen you for whats next
I used to say im battered and bruised deep in the valley
After I met grace
And now that I have Faith
I can rest in what Ive learned and know
Over the hills, through the valley
Is not only hope, transformation and growth
though the shame still lingers
I can hold onto the breakthrough that is ahead
I turned to God
But I still can't shake this shame and fear
Hiding behind fear
Honestly I've been the most scared I've been in my life
Fear of leaving the house
Fear of being seen
Fear of losing my babies
Fear of our future
Fear of being a mother
Fear of moving forward
Fear of making a decision
It's easy to say
Believe in God
It's easy to say have faith
But it's another thing to do those things in the midst of things crashing around you
With everyone against you
And your in the room with just you and God
Asking why me
But then you hear God whisper in your ear
read proverbs and this verse sticks out
-Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths” Proverbs 3:5-6
in the mean time
Holding on to faith
Faith starts as baby faith
And then you witness fruit and it grows
Then the storm rages on
It bends and shakes
Nearly breaks
Almost blew away
But your faith remains unwavering
Then your faith goes from baby faith to maybe faith
Because no one knows your strom
Like you do
No one saw your storm go from sun, rain, clouds, raging storm, clear skies to calm like you did
No one spiraled into desperate covering like you had to
Only God sent the rescue float, team and essentials
Thats the only explanation of being pulled out the mud
Thought it was over
No end in sight
But God
But God
New storm, new outlook
Faith Forward
Faith through
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