Wallow

Wallow

Lately I’ve found myself wallowing in the breaking

Instead of feeling the wind on my face

Chasing the blessing, living in it

Treating the present as it comes, like a gift

I keep pressing through the moment to what I planned

Laser focused on the temper in the wilderness losing sight of the savior that is with me guiding me to

Embrace the promise

To allow God to rewrite the mistake

Walking you slowly

With loving grace and

Mercy to save you from your own ways

That is where transformation is the most sensitive applying the word of God in the hardest of times not when it’s easy

Press into the spirit and

Challenge a new narrative

When moments arise that are uncomfortable and foreign it’s easy to stop waiting on the Lords direction

Cover the suffering instead of sitting in it

To rush it away with fear and hostility

But if you stay in the moment and walk with stillness

That’s the very place God wants you

It’s not about if you deserve it or if you even asked for it

What is God telling you to do next

Without fear of who or what you will lose

How it will change what or how you thought something would happen

You start and finish when the Lord wants you to

That’s when you remember

Your life is not your own

Why be afraid

When all you need is to trust the footprints in the sand even when you can’t see them anymore

Have faith he’s carrying you through to something even greater than you can see or imagine

I want them to like me

Heck I dont want him to leave me

God in your mercy Help me see that

What’s for me is for me

To Believe if You lead me to it

It’s mine to claim

Help me not to wallow in their energy

But to Dwell in your spirit especially when I’m angry, insecure, afraid, and drowning in comparison. To trust that even when I mess up you won’t leave me. Draw near to me Lord so my focus is stayed on the light in Jesus name

Amen